raising my heads up high. praying to God to make evrything fall in its rightful place thrugh His merciful grace.

this one reminds me of you

frozen

you gotta look for the goodinthe bad, the happy in your sad, the gain in your pain
, and whatever makes you gratefu and not hateful.

Thanks for this!

Thank you for sending me this ecard. hindi na ako nakabawi... but i hope you know that I'm proud of you. Always take care! Ill see you in Singapore. =)

Happy Halloween!

This picture reminds me of the old days. It brings smile in my heart.  

BK, jasper, jhaz and tan


And who can forget this picture??? not even my heart can forget. 

=) <3

woke up at the middle of the night

Yes, my mind was wandering. I wished I were there with someone who could bring peace to my heart - someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that I would lose him the next day. With that reassurance, the time would pass more slowly. We could be silent for a while because we'd know we had the rest of our lives together for conversation. I wouldn't have to worry about serious matters, about difficult decisions and hard words.

Even if we cant make it today or tomorrow.. I know someday... we will.

i'll call you later at dawn. thanks!

soul extension

this account is an extension of my soul... this is where you can talk to me.


nice to hear your voice again.


**do not give this to anyone else. This extension is exclusively mine. 

my life without you scares mo more.

crossroads

...hope our roads will cross again.. by that time.. ill love you more than ive done.

last kiss

this is for you

last burst of my emotion

I think im crazy...coz im missing you bigtime. All the persons around me tells me to just let go.. You know i love to see you happy even before.. I miss your smell, your smile, touch .. everything about you. Our sweet talks.. about nonsense things. Im sorry about everything. Once everything is clear to you, you would understand how much I love you. I lied because of  a deeper reason.. deep than any human being could fathom. The love and hatred collides... This will be the last burst of my emotion... I just want you to know... that you still have it.

someday.. you will understand why... someday.

cynical

why do I still care... a lot? why?! .. you wanted to move on... and im giving you the best gift that I could give.. go on babe. Be happy. as for me... I can take care of my self.

unrequited love

seeing you smile is enough for me to live my life everyday even if that smile is not for me.. It's hard to watch you being happy without me. maybe this is not our time, maybe next time, or maybe none at all.. but i want you to know that i'm watching you from a distance. we might part ways.. but I know i left a piece of me to you.. and you left pieces of yourself as well to mine. One day.. this piece of each other will bring us back together.

Breaking dawn

you cut the only thread that was left. I know I've made my mistake and I'm remorseful of that. I guess, ill carry on with my life with this, forever. One day will come that you wont see me anymore. Destroy my name, my face and my everything. i am worthless and no one deserves me like what you mentioned.

Maybe, i just have to believe my father that someday, someone will come who could appreciate who i really am and respect my whole being. . . who ever he is, i'm preparing myself for you Thank you Lord for this journey, drive my journey now. Amen.

long road to hoe

the magic petal hasn't fallen on the ground... hard to explain, but that's how life works i guess.

sad

why cant I stop??? There's something in me that pulls me back to you.

PAPER LANTERN

Paper lantern... reminds me of new beginning... reminds me of you.

It's been written in the scars of our hearts... were not broken .. we're just bent so we can learn to love again. 

take time

I'm hating you so much now... why i cant open my hands for you .. up until now.. it remained close. it will take time for me to learn to open my hands.. so much time. 

...

I'm sorry if i told you a lie. You'll know soonest why I need to do this. Hope you find the right person to talk to about everything who will make you understand. Don't forget who i am when the sun is shining bright.

changes

...is inevitable. bahala na kung ano mangyayari ngayon at bukas.

it feels so different now. I guess, this is the repercussions of what i have done. I'm really sad and remorseful on what I have done. They don't deserve me. They deserve someone else better than me. Im asking God now to give me strength to go on with my life. 

I'm preparing to give the best gift that I could give ever. May God have mercy on me. Remove all the hurts, pain and fears in me and replace it with his peace.

o;)

God is in the sadness and the laughter, in the bitter and the sweet. There is a divine purpose behind everything — and therefore a divine presence in everything.

Not one of God's children can be evil. At worst, he or she is hurt. At worst, he or she attacks others, and blames them for their pain. But, they are not evil.
Yes, your compassion must go this deep. There is no human being who does not deserve your forgiveness. There is no human being who does not deserve your love.


An 'enemy' is someone that God puts in our path that is most in need of our love; not retaliation or retribution or harm or insult.


God may not always come
exactly when you call Him…
but He is always on time."


'Your task is to build a better world,' God said. I answered, 'How?... this world is such a large, vast place, and there's nothing I can do.' But God said, in all His wisdom, 'just build a better you.'

Home move

FEBRUARY 19, 2013
Home move
Fourth Estate, Paranaque City


Today, Tristan moved his things from his old place to his new place. Its not that far, it's just 10 steps away from their house. He moved in front of their house, on top of his Aunt's dental clinic.

There's a lot of things going on right now, though I know that he's mustering all his energy to be firm, i know .. deep inside. that there is a storm within him. I'm praying for God's mercy and grace for Him to overcome everything and to calm the storm in him. 

The feeling is different now. I can see the changes. I wept earlier when I felt it. I love him so much but its necessary for everyone to have his own space for healing. . and I respect that. 

I'm sorry

Im sorry baby. I miss you so much. I'm hurt to see you're hurting too. I love you. 

Ash wednesday & pre-valentines day

February 13, 2013
ASH WEDNESDAY

This is a day to recall all our wrong deeds and ask for God's forgiveness. Ash symbolizes that we are from dust and will all go back to dust. Sign of the cross in the forehead symbolizes repentance and turning back to our old self and living the new self through Christ.

I visited St. Peregrine's Shrine first before going to Tristan's place. This day is also the day that jhen was almost diagnosed with Bells palsy (CN7 palsy). I went to church and prayed.

God is still in control. A lot of people is still seeking His mercy and grace

After our church together, me and my baby went to Max's to eat and to celebrate pre-valentines day. This is the first time I went to Max's Sucat branch. Thanks!

Max's Sucat branch

tumba tumba for the elderly while they're waiting for their turn

Our meal: 

Spring Chicken meal

yummy caramel bar

spring chicken

Refreshing Mango juice!

ube decadence

Mr. Salt and Mrs. Pepper together!

Spooning and Forking

other shots:
Though we always fight and argue with things, I guess that's how people live. Adjusting and coping with one another. Respecting each other's difference is the key. Sweet arguments, though I deny it, mahal ko pa rin tong baboy na to.

dami mu kinaen!

ahlurvit!

It's raining and we went to BF Ruins and bought our couple's shades. After that, we decided to sit and have a cup of coffee and juice st Starbucks BF.

Mango shake and Caramel Machiatto

deep thinking!

smile baby!

antok na.. pero picture pa din

nagulat?! 

sungit and chinito

Every long lost dream led me to where you are

Others who broke my heart, they're like Northern Stars

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms

This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road

That lead me straight to you.

   

We went out today as a family to eat lunch, watched Breaking Dawn part 2 and went to church together. Im so sad because I really want this day, but i have sleepless night.
This day I need to go to work and have my shift.. sooo sleepy. ='( Good thing that it's avail.


I miss my baby Tristan already. ='( hope he'll get well soon.