it feels so different now. I guess, this is the repercussions of what i have done. I'm really sad and remorseful on what I have done. They don't deserve me. They deserve someone else better than me. Im asking God now to give me strength to go on with my life. 

I'm preparing to give the best gift that I could give ever. May God have mercy on me. Remove all the hurts, pain and fears in me and replace it with his peace.